It's been a while since I've written again. Strange how I'm beginning to accept this about myself. I'm not so great at blogging with regularity. But it doesn't mean I don't love my blog readers or care about blogging. It's just a fact of the way my life is right now.
But I am writing today. I find that writing helps me come to some clarity and clarity sounds like a good thing today.
First, though, an update on my husband's job situation since many of you have asked how we're doing with that. For those who don't know, my husband's company is closing it's office here and he is being laid off. There's really nothing new to to report. He's sent his resume out, but no bites on it yet. Please keep praying about that for us as it concerns me a great deal. I really, really don't want to move.
On a happier note, we are entering birthday season in our home. Both of my girls have birthdays this week, so we are having fun celebrating and planning all kinds of fun parties. My oldest turned 13 yesterday! So I am now the mother of a teenager! Her friends are throwing a surprise party for her tonight, which I think is the sweetest thing ever!
As for me, well, I am happy to report an influx of web/graphic design clients! This is a good thing most of the time, but can be difficult for me to manage because of my own self doubts combined with the health aspect of my life.
Yep, my health issues have come back with a vengence! I am struggling with stomach problems almost constantly. And my fatigue is overwhelming. It has definately made it difficult to get my craft business back up and running, since I am often too tired to sew. I don't know if it is stress that is making my health worse, but I know it frustrates me so much. If I had any idea what to do to fix it, I would try it. But everything I've tried has only made it worse. Sometimes I feel like Paul. Like this health stuff is the "thorn in my side" that just won't go away. Not that I handle it at all with the courage he did or that I'm really anything like him at all, but it definately is my thorn that plagues me. Feeling sick more than half of the time is really hard.
Feeling sick messes with my confidence too. How can I commit to a large or quick website project when I am struggling? How could I even hold down a regular job? What if my husband doesn't find work again and I need to help bring in a more regular income? Can I even do that? It scares me.
So, I'm in a bit of a "glass is half empty" place right now. I'm trying to look at the positives though too. Like being thankful for more work and enjoying the work I'm doing. Like my husband having time to look for work before his current job is finished. Like having really great kids that I am so proud of. Like the early arrival of spring in Wisconsin.
See how positive I can be when I try? :)
So, that's my bit of clarity for today. Focus on the positive. Do my best. Count my blessings. Push through the sickness as much as I can. Love on my great kids. Support my husband. Enjoy my work.
I knew writing about it would help!
PS: Congrats to Britt: winner of Over the Edge
