It all started with a Packer shirt.
We are going to a Packer game soon and I need a cute Packer shirt to wear because what Wisconsite cheesehead can go to a Packer game in anything that doesn't shout out their loyalty to Aaron Rodgers and the Pack. I went shopping for a shirt to wear.
I couldn't find anything.
The women's t-shirts were so tight across the tummy and I don't have the right shape to be drawing people's eyes to that part of my body. The men's t-shirts are so long and baggy. Nothing was right.
I got depressed about my body. Again.
Because of a Packer shirt. Now I don't even want to go to the game.
Then I drank my meal-replacement shake for lunch. Because it's supposed to make me feel good and lower cholesterol and help me lose weight and bring world peace. But it made me so sick all afternoon. So I'm guessing this will not be my solution.
Now I'm even more depressed.
If you've been following my blog, you know that my weight is a touchy subject for me in many, many ways.
So for several hours I wallowed in my self-pity, knowing that I have tried and failed so many diets and ways of eating and exercise programs that I could scream, I knew I had reached a crossroads where I had to change my way of thinking about it all once and for all.
And then I remember the book Made to Crave that I read recently and the way it inspired me to look at dieting and exercising in a different way. So I made a decision.
A bunch of the blogs that I follow are doing a "31 Days of Change" challenge. I've been wanting to join in, but wasn't sure what I would post about for 31 days.
Now I know.
I want to explore 31 days of feeding my soul. Where I stop eating to fix my emotions. Where I stop creating a false god of my number on a scale. Where I get back to reading my Bible and feeding myself spiritually. Where I give up sugar.
Wait. What's that about sugar?
In the midst of my spiritual nourishment for the next 31 days, I also want to give up sugar. I will talk about my reasons in greater detail later. It is not an act of self-discipline, but an act of worship for me. An act of cleaving to my Lord instead of mindlessly filling myself with chocolate or cookies. It will be hard. But it is my 31-day challenge for myself. Not as a means of losing weight, lest I keep that scale as my focus; but a surrender of my own will.
So that's how a Packer shirt led me to giving up sugar and a 31-day challenge to feed myself in a different way in October.
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There are so many amazing 31-day challenges going on! Check out the links here at the lovely Nesting Place blog!
