Well, I fell off the face of the earth. Again.
This time it was to host lots of company and to survive the end of my daughter's swim team season. Lots of driving time to and from the pool and to and from the grocery story to get more food.
I haven't been reading that much either. Most of what I've been reading is about diets and emotional eating. Someday I really am going to get the answers I need. I started doing Turbo Fire exercise program from Beachbody.com. I've been working out really hard for 2 months now and really love that part, but the food part is crazy hard for me. And the more the think about what to do and that I need to stop eating junk once and for all; well, the more I crave it!
So that's me right now. Facing another trip home and still fat. Knowing that as soon as I get off the plane they will look at me and look knowingly at eat other at how I still look so bad. If only they knew that I beat myself up every single day over it and couldn't be any more ashamed than I already am.
One week left. Too late to really make any weight loss progress.
The bright spot in all this has been the book Made to Crave by Lysa TerKeurst. It's a wonderful book that encourages us to look at the spiritual aspect of our cravings. She challenged me to see how food is my emotional crutch and substitute for my craving for a relationship with God, but she does is without inducing shame either. I'm hoping that memorizing the verses she writes us and falling on my knees for help in my temptations will help me as well.
I'm reading it a second time now, so I can absorb the words and really put them into practice.
So that's what I've been working through. How are you, my blog friends?
