It's been quite a holiday season in our household! I decided to make waaaayy too many of my gifts and got behind and then stressed and then had all my health problems that come with stress. Lesson: make a few gifts over the whole year, not in the last 2 weeks before Christmas! I know, duh, right? But easier to say now than do...
My kids are finally heading back to school tomorrow. We've had a long break and it feels really late to be coming out of Christmas vacation, though of course our "politically correct" school calls it "winter break." Anyway, I am excited to get back to the routine of our lives, but dreading the constant go-go of our schedules too.
I've been letting fear rule my heart too. My youngest is battling some big fears in her life and I can't help but feel like I'm being sucked into them. It's so hard for a mother's heart to watch horrible anxiety manifest itself in your baby. It is my constant prayer for her to find peace from her fears. My oldest is approaching teenagedom and faces all the pressures and issues that are part of middle school. I pray for her constantly too. And my husband appears to have been swallowed by his job. He is so busy. I miss him but am trying to be understanding and supportive and thankful that he has a job.
Through all this I am still trying to get a handle on who I am supposed to be. I am trying to be content in my multiple-personality-type approach to life right now as I bounce from role to role. Or, more aptly, try to keep all the plates spinning at the same time. Some days the frustration with all these roles leads to a depression, especially after a really busy season like Christmas was for us.
I've been reading very little lately too. I am trying to be calm about my own lack of enthusiasm in this area, and recognize that it ebbs and flows like all my other pursuits and passions. This seems to be the key for me right now. Just riding the tide and not fighting it so hard.
So, now you're all caught up on where I've been. How are things with you?
