Ever since I gave birth to our youngest (who is now 6), I have had trouble with my hormone levels. For a long time after she was born I tried telling my dr that something was wrong. I kept having feelings like an electrical current was running through my body and I'd have adrenaline rushes for no reason when I was trying to fall asleep. She would listen and smile and nod in the way that doctors do when they think you are just an over-tired mom who needs a nice hot bath and a cup of tea. But I kept coming back to her over and over again. Finally after 2 years of struggling we tested my hormone levels. Guess what...I wasn't crazy afterall! I seem to have lost the ability to produce progesterone on my own. My body was totally out of balance. Finally an answer! All will be well now, right?
Wrong! It seems that there is no easy way to know exactly how to make my balance right again except through trial and error. So I played around with different dose levels of the progesterone cream until I finally started feeling better. For a while.
As my body adjusts to the stress levels I am experiencing, the levels of hormone I need also changes. So some months I go back to the electrical current thing again. This is one of those months. I am frustrated and angry that I have to feel this way. I know my wacky hormones have played a factor in my miscarriage and ability to conceive again. I guess I'm just feeling sorry for myself today. Sometimes I get so frustrated with this earthly body and all it's failings. Won't it be cool to be completely healthy in heaven? Maybe I'll finally be able to carry a tune too!
Thanks for letting me vent. You are good listeners!